all I want

And I want to dance and I want to laugh and I want to share all that I feel and I mean, really share it, with people who are willing to share, too And I want to do things and I want to move forward and I want to be moved and be real with those around me And I want to feel my heart beat because of the sheer joy of being alive and I want to make things happen because there is no other way And I want to succeed with the things I care about and I want to be proud of my accomplishements and I want to jump high and believe in a safe landing And I want to show others who I am and i want to stop pretending because I absolutely have no reason to And I want to love fulheartedly without fear because life should never be governed by fear And I want to make decisisions based on my own understanding of how things should work and I want to defy evil and cry my eyes out because sometimes my system needs that And I want to hold hands and listen to others and give comfort And I want to take care of my body and treat it well because it is all I have and I want to be kind to my heart because it it is gentle and one shouldn’t fuck around with a heart too much And I want to be surprised by the days and I want to speak my mind and I want to discuss matters madly and I want to breathe the air and feel life pulsate through my body And I don’t want to complicate things as it is all quite simple really and I know I just have to listen to myself And I want to tell my stories and I want to write them down and I want to sing out loud even tho I can’t sing And run free and fast, step lightly on the ground and look forward to tomorrow and the day after and even to 2039 And I want to give love to my family and friends be there for them and tell them how much they mean to me And I want to learn more and see things wide eyed and open mouthed and go on adventures and see the world and help more people who are not as fortunate as And I want to understand things and myself and others And I want to touch and be touched. I want to be a smartass at times because I can and I want to make crazy theories about life and the universe and I want to let go more and trust, yeah, trust in myself because the more I trust in myself the more I will become who I want to be now, tomorrow and in the future and that will lead me to doing the things I am meant to do. And I want to be faithful to what I say and trust my gut feeling and faithful to those I love and I want to earn their trust And I want to slow dance and I want to run barefoot in the rain and eat ice cream at midnight And I want to expect little and thus always be surprised how amazing everything works out in the end And I want to drive through the jungle in a jeep And I want to be curious and meet people that are totally different and talk about music and dance more And I want to be strong and I want to cope with those stones in my path because there will always be some but that is normal And I want to do this all now, always, because there is no time to lose.

“When in doubt, have a gun pointing at your head.”